I feel like a traveler in my own body, the host of my spirits. The world acts separately from me for I am an observer, only here to watch and participate as merely a number in the complex. Our realities are individualized by our personal experiences and circumstances, never allowing for two people to travel on the same path. I have found myself in the body of a lost soul, someone looking for purpose in the chaos of the world we’ve created through our collective consciousness. We stand alone in a crowd of bodies, huddled together to find their purpose, but never being fulfilled by their existence- even though their awareness of its impending end resides in the dark corners of their mind, their spirits controlling its containment.
Your writing describes beautifully a soul dealing with an exestential crisis. I feel it in you description and imagery. As an aged person I can empathize, because throughout life one repeatedly faces such moments. Gratefully we emerge redefined by ourselves and not by the definition of others. Painful but so necessary to become who we choose to become and not remain forever shadows of the past.
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